Daddy, give me peace. why am I worrying so much! I know You know what the outcome’s gonna be, I know You know which institution I’m gonna enroll in to, I know You’ve planned everything to work out for my good. But whyyyyy. It’s not even as if I don’t believe that everything’s really gonna be good, it’s not as if I’m doubting You. Is this some normal human reaction? Is this even that normal since I trust You?

Show me Your perfect love all over again, let me know it’s really really gonna be fantastically good, take that fear and worry away, and let Your peace reign.

got me thinking there,

BACK FROM ISRAAAAEEEL!

this trip seemed to pass really fast. At least I think, this is really a new beginning. I’ve left everything back there – thinkings, friendships. I mean, more of letting go and letting God! But I brought this thing back I never thought I would. Kept me thinking for hours. But I haven’t figured anything. Daddy, show me something that’s not so complex please!

Anyw this, is really a year of restful increase. It’s like a day + half/hr to 2011! Thinking of watchnight gets me hyped up. But on a heavier note, feelin’ pretty :S since I’m not with fam & I didn’t spend Christmas with them. Yep, got cards to be done! Back on track; Recalling last year’s Christmas, where I was yearning for a towel and asking mom to get it for me, haha weird, I know. Amazingly, I got 2 towels for a Christmas present and another one when I was over in the US! This year, I wanted – while I was shopping for the trip, but didn’t buy it. And, I got it as a Christmas present again. Today, Y asked me to go for bcm, it was so late so I rejected. And, dad came home after work with bcm in his hands! Hahah, how timely and cool. Just seeing every little thing Jesus has done and the works that changed my life, it’s really amazing.

Amazing love, how can it be. That you my King would die for me. Amazing love, I know it’s true. It’s my joy to honor You, in all I do, I honor You.

I miss,

I was thinking, is anyone like me? I think, I recall, and I hope no one else does. But then again, maybe it’s just me. I don’t know.

I’m missing school. I’m missing people. I’m missing my teachers, my classmates. I’m missing lessons, I’m missing recess and lunch breaks @ tmart. I’m missing the responsibility of the class. But then again, there’s only a one time, and DaddyGod’s amazing, how He ended my Secondary school life with a wonderful beginning. Omg what am I talking about? Yeah.

Coach said, “Live life to the fullest, because every season only passes by once.”

And now, I’m taking up new responsibilities. Sometimes it’s really much more fulfilling to help, to serve, than merely enjoy. Be blessed to be a blessing, OHYEAH.

Compiling my memories, compiling my thanksgiving, compiling everything Daddy’s done for me.

And I thought,

I looked out to the world and thought, ‘where do I go now?’

I got lost in the midst of everything that has happened. It was hard, it was really hard. I needed time, I needed encouragement, I needed love.

I knew Daddy was there, I knew it, sub-conciously. I’m thankful for everyone He has put in my life, they were all here for a good purpose. Especially them, mhmm. Letting everything out was pretty good, but Daddy, I need a breakthrough. Fall afresh on me. Yeppp, amen.

And I know, that He will work things out for good. It may be tough, but my journey with Jesus never ends, it’ll be good. And by the end of it, I’ll never be the same. :]

happens.

Hate it when it happens, hate it. I need a cry out, I really do.

I need to talk to someone.

And I hate to see you like this.

such love

In the midst of that crazy and complicted world, I’m actually really peaceful deep in there. Honestly, I’ve really really felt and experienced the goodness of my DaddyGod these few days, and I’m sure there’s more to come, amen.

Despite having soooo many things to handle, I’m actually really carefree and happy. It’s just that sometimes I just can’t find a reason to be happy.

But for now, I just want things to be alright.

spangz the world ~

I’m so happy I could just smash everything hahaha Jesus is A W E S O M E and this is so SPANGZ HAHHAA

• Omgosh life is wonderful. I’m 4hours in Spangz world. (: hahaha, I was so tired today.
• When Miss Low told us to hurry and get ready and go to the washroom before the paper started cause the paper was 2 hours, I was like whaaat it’s 2hours. Haha okayyy.
• I sprayed oil over my pencil case before the exam started and too much of it came out & it was sooo oily hahah.
• Had mind block while writing the letterrr, but Jesus brought me through it. Whoohoo. And, I wrote exceptionally long for my report. (: I memo-ed so many idioms last night HAHA. Power.
• Skipped recess, rested in class.
• Paper 2 started, and the mcqs turned out to be quite simple, till the open-ended. I read the first few words of the first passage and I imeediately flipped to the next one cause I don’t like ‘hard’ kinda essays. K so while reading the passage with my head on the table I was falling asleep LOL. It’s so spangz, seriously. I almost slept and would’ve not done the whole of the last part.
• Uhhuh I finished it 15 minutes before the end and went to sleep, and got a shock when Miss Low screamed that it was over, and it tooked awhile to recover from that. Wollll.
• Lunch with pigfamily cept’ for sx and included Ly @ Mac. I can’t really chew the difference between the new quater pounder burger & the double cheese. Apart from the tenderness of the meat. Heheh.
• Studied in school with Sq and Ly till the library was closed and I managed to memorize two factors of SS and did half a math paper. Laughed like mad from then till 6plussss. SPANGZ.
• 201 with Ly, then math tuition. Math tuition was so spangz too we laughed like crazy while having a test, lol.
• - I got a call and received awesome news. DADDYGODYOURESOAMAZINGYOULOVEMEANDILOVEYOU ^^

Life is going greatttt. I can’t wait for Saturdaaaay. SPANGZ PEOPLE. Go studyyyy,